May 17 2013
Lately, I have found myself complaining on how exhausted I have been trying to juggle and manage everything that I need to do everyday. Daily life can be overwhelming and tiring, and these seem to justify my complaints.
I have realized that our default is to whine about life, and how complicated and difficult it can be. Celebrating life and being grateful seems to go against the tide of our instinctive emotions.
I had an “epiphany” a few months back on what I want my blog’s overarching theme to be. I want it to be about Celebrating Life and Motherhood. Most people I believe are like me who often find more of what is lacking, what we want and what is wrong in our lives more than rejoicing in what has already been given to us and what we have been blessed with. Most moms like me have failed to find the gift of life everyday and have lost the zest and joy in their current circumstances. Sometimes we look way far into the future, what we dream to do, where we want to go to, what we want to achieve, and who we want to become. We no longer see the beauty of today and the blessing of the season that we are currently in.
I hope that every entry that I will write will inspire you to celebrate every single moment that God has given to you. I heard this song in one of the singing competitions on TV. The song has a line that says “to live like you were dying”. Sounds morbid but true. The truth is our life is but a gift and every moment is precious.
There are moments where I stare at my children wondering how many times I have missed being in the present having not cherished every single second that I have with them. I wonder how many times have I busied myself accomplishing tasks, forgetting to laugh with them, play with them, and just simply be with them to enjoy the time that I have with them. I wonder how often I have made a big deal about trivial matters with my husband instead of choosing to make beautiful memories with him just to simply love and serve him. I wonder how many times I have chosen a clean and organized house over letting my kids have the freedom to move around, create, have fun, and play in our home.
I don’t want to wait for tomorrow to have my best life. I want to choose to be grateful for today and all that it brings. Every day has its blessings. Each day has its gifts. Every breath, every moment is sacred and precious. A heart that is grateful is a heart that celebrates.
How can we have grateful hearts? I thought back to how I was before and how I thought the universe revolved around me. This is the contrasting truth that hit my head, and changed my heart: It is not about me. It has never been about me and will never be about me. I have realized that there is no space for a sense of entitlement in a heart that is grateful. I am grateful because I am a sinner and I am worthless but I was saved through grace and the inexplicable love of my savior, Jesus Christ. My worth has never been and will never be based on what I do, accomplish, how I look, who I know, or what others think of me. My worth and my identity is based on what Jesus did for me. Period. And all that I have in my life, my husband, my children, my family, friends, work, my talents, well literally everything are not mine and I will never be deserving of any of them. These are all gifts, all blessings, all underserved, but nevertheless given by God’s abundant grace.
I pray that I do not forget this. Or when if I do, I pray that I get reminded of this truth. I want to celebrate my life and my motherhood everyday. I want to be thankful and appreciate each moment that I am blessed with. I want to live my life to the fullest living out God’s purposes for my life each day and in so doing honor God with the life that He has graciously given me.